My thoughts on everything from Life to Love and a few of my Guilty Pleasures ~


*Due to unforeseen medical complications, I will not be able to update my blog for several weeks (a few at the very least). I have to get another MRI to check for more possible tumor issues :(  just when you think you are out of the woods…shit happens; but I hope you’ll all come and read my older posts and let me know what you think of them (NOT just the Robsten/KStew ones). I will be back and try and write just as soon as I can !!

So Welcome to my blogging site.

I find in a world of video games, TV, surfing the web and texting that no one seems to have the time to read and write anymore.  I am just as guilty as the next person when it comes to this stuff but I really try and take time out to both read and write because they are some of the things that I love and the things that are still important to me.  As I have said before, reading IS fundamental and I wish we could pound that into our children’s heads, but if WE don’t read ourselves what example are we setting for them?

My site is broken down into several sections about Life, Love, Guilty Pleasures, Twilight (I started the blog when I was somewhat of a fan), Kristen Stewart and Robsten, Movies,  and more.  Each section has a tab with links to each post.  You will find blogs about all kinds of stuff just like it says.  I like to write about my take on just about everything.  I write about my views on life, love, sex and relationships which the latter can sometimes be shocking to some people because I do not hold any of my opinions back and I think you will find that is one thing throughout this site that has a common factor.

You might notice a lot of things written concerning Kristen Stewart and Robsten which I recently gave a separate page to because there was just too much to keep in the Twilight section and quite often the posts are not very nice.  I have my reasons for not liking her and that is my prerogative so just leave it alone BUT if you have a problem with it you can voice your opinion in the comments, I will always answer.  I have blogs about Robert Pattinson which I suppose you could consider one of the few of my Guilty Pleasures and I have a Twilight section for everything Twilight that is not about Kristen Stewart and Robsten.  My Misc. section has whatever crap just doesn’t seem to have a home and I have recently added pages for Movies and Entertainment because I watch a lot of movies and TV now that my health totally sucks and I don’t leave the house all that much, so thought I might start to review some of my favorites as well as have a video page of my favorite videos, music and otherwise. I also have a picture page which I like to call Eye Candy to display a variety of the extremely hot men that I would like to see A LOT more of ;)


So it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see after about two seconds into some of my posts that I absolutely do not agree with the masses concerning Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart, but that’s okay because I am also open to a good debate at any time, as long as the people that are reading this don’t feel the need to be total assholes to me because they don’t like my opinions.  REMEMBER, they are only opinions.  Go ahead and call me a bitch but if you want to take it any further, I suggest to just take it someplace else.

I also feel like I DO need to mention a few things….I am not or have I ever been with in love with Robert Pattinson whether I have written blogs about him or not. Just because I appreciate his work and talents but do not agree with the large group of people that are in love with Kristen Stewart or the idea that Robsten is the miracle that will save our souls does not mean I am an old shrew that will curl up in the fetal position and die if I find out the fairytale is true.   Honestly, I don’t give a shit; my issue is with the people that NEED it to be true and are hateful and threatening to anyone who is not in love with the idea of the “great love of Robsten”.  I just think the whole idea of it is fucking stupid and is or at least was all about PR but then again that’s JUST MY OPINION and last time I checked I was entitled to it.


 I like to pretend I can write so hopefully you will continue to read what I have to say no matter what your views are.

Peace, Love and Happiness to you and yours ~ Nan

Some of these blogs I wrote years ago and had posted over at Facebook so you might see me refer to them as notes and it’s too much of a pain in my ass to go in and change each one.  A lot of them are kind of outdated as well so even if they say they were written more recently than they were you should always be able to find the newest post on the front page of the blog and for those of you that have repeatedly asked me about subscribing, it is in the sidebar. Thanks :)

Once again feel free to comment but PLEASE use your actual name (or some username), it takes about 2 seconds to register but when you come from some of these track back sites and comment with names like Viagra Users United or whatever it is hard to take you as a serious commentor and it goes right to my spam folder, I really TRY and answer every comment if it is not spam but sometimes it takes me awhile.  I love my readers so I will never ignore you, even the total assholes (which I don’t love so much but are still entitled to their shitty opinions).

Notice to my readers March 2014


I’ve been a sad panda :(

I wanted to take a moment to let my subscribers and anyone who stops in and thinks I have all but forgotten my blog that I am sorry. I KNOW I have neglected it and I honestly have no real excuses lately. A few months ago I was ill for a very long time and with that came a deep depression but after that I just found myself with a loss for words.  I have blogs that I want to write about and some of them even started but for some reason I just can’t seem to finish anything I start and I don’t know why. Some of you that come here will probably say no great loss but I KNOW that at least a handful of you actually enjoy what I have to say and feel let down when I neglect this place.  I am trying to get my life in order right now and after I manage to get my shit together I PROMISE I will come back and get back to the writing; I might even have something important to say and if not you might at least be entertained ;) in the meantime feel free to wander around the site and check out some of my older blogs. Most are found in the Life and Love sections; most of them are worth the time to check out and are some of the best I have written, or at least the most insightful :) until I see you again….

Peace, love and happiness ~


Parkland ~ Not Your Typical Conspiracy Theory Jizzfest ;)

Still feeling a little like this guy is coming for me but also feeling guilty for not keeping my promise about bringing this review to you guys, so here it is and I hope you like it ;)

Still feeling a little like this guy is coming for me but also feeling guilty for not keeping my promise about bringing this review to you guys, so here it is and I hope you like it ;)

I’m sitting here burning the midnight oil, finally finishing up my Parkland movie review. I honestly didn’t know if I would ever get this done because I’ve been at deaths door; last week right after I started reviewing the movie and writing this blog, my illness went nuclear, so I had to stop writing. I had to stop pretty much of everything for that matter because I was in as close to a coma like state as you can get, sleeping 20 hours a day and when I wasn’t sleeping it was a chore to stay awake, focused or coherent but there’s nothing I hate more than pissing off my very few but loyal readers, so here goes. Just be warned if it sucks, it’s because it’s been a slow process digging my way out of the grave or at least enough so to write this stunning review……. 1383204_409417975850494_1963985469_n So, I FINALLY got a chance to watch the amazing movie Parkland a few weeks ago.  I had been so excited that Tom Welling was returning to acting, as so many of his other fans were, that I literally went crazy over this movie on my Facebook, Twitter etc. and got everyone of my friends and family interested in the movie whether they liked Tom or not. Even with my intense social and anxiety disorders I told myself I was gonna get out of the house and see this movie no matter what.

This is how I felt when i couldn't find Parkland playing anywhere near me!!!

This is how I felt when I couldn’t find Parkland playing anywhere near me!!!

Guess what? On October 4th, the day the movie was supposed to open to the general public I went to Fandango to buy my tickets like everyone else. It wasn’t playing at the big theater right down the road from me, so I was like OK maybe it is at one of the smaller artsy type theaters because it is a smaller film with a targeted audience…um, yeah NO.  The film was showing in TWO THEATERS in my state.  For some people this isn’t that big of an issue although it really should be. You shouldn’t have to drive 200 fucking miles to see a god damned movie with a bunch of Oscar winners, fan favorites and an up and coming star/otherwise known as every little girl’s wet dream ;) With that many amazing and beloved Oscar winning and nominated actors, you would think they would have the movie showing all over the place. I mean just adding up the fan bases of the major characters alone should have been enough to get a wide release but noooooooo that would mean something was actually going right in my life for once. Aside from all of that, after my three brain surgeries I am not allowed to drive because I still have the tiniest of teeny tiny seizures and my doctor will not clear me until I can prove I am not having seizures blah blah blah….so unless the movie or whatever is a cab ride away, I am not seeing it and Exclusive media fucking sucks for that reason alone. I decided to do what any true obsessed fan who can’t find the movie anyplace else would do and who absolutely cannot wait another month for the DVD; I found it and downloaded it on the internet.  Do I feel guilty about it? Yeah a little but it wasn’t for lack of trying to find this fucking movie at a theater near me. But back to my review ~

The original Front page of the New York Times after the assassination

The original Front page of the New York Times after the assassination

If you didn’t know Parkland isn’t your normal conspiracy theory movie. There are no grassy knolls or any other kind of bullshit. What there IS, is some brilliant story telling but I guess it is not really telling a story per-say it is re-telling it in an entertaining and moving way.  The story being told is not about some cover up; it’s about real people, the people that had to deal with this giant shitstorm that day and the fallout of the days after. It was emotional and made me feel something that I just didn’t expect to feel when I was watching it.  Even moi, heartless old Nan shed a few tears here and there…. I was surprised in the fact that actual footage from the day of the assassination was used in the movie, so that had a strange effect on me.  It was almost like being there and experiencing that day like so many people in my life had experienced it.  Being a child of the 60′s, I have plenty of people that remember exactly what they were doing when word came of Kennedy’s death. My ex-husband for one was just getting ready to have his tonsils taken out and they had the radio on in the waiting room. A nurse rushed in and everything stopped, He said they all just put their heads down and cried. Needless to say my ex didn’t have his tonsils removed that day. Out of something so terrible a country came together on a single day in one tragic moment in time. I don’t think America has suffered that kind of shock, sadness and loss that would bring them together in the same way for another 38 years, which was when the Twin Towers fell.


I don’t want people to think “OK well she told us about the movie (some of which was already in the trailer) we don’t need to go see it” You will be sorry you didn’t if you like any of the actors in this film. They are all exceptional :)

Marcia Gay Harden as nurse Doris Nelson

Marcia Gay Harden as nurse Doris Nelson

The movie starts right in with the actual footage of Kennedy greeting the crowds and you realize just then by the looks on their faces and just the general feeling of it all what a truly magnanimous man he was. The footage blends seamlessly back and forth with the new scenes at Parkland Memorial Hospital with the incomparable Marcia Gay Harden as nurse Doris Nelson and Zac Efron as Resident doctor Jim Carrico just getting ready for another day. The movie then goes on to show you some of the key places and characters of the movie, first focusing on Paul Giamatti

David Harbour as Gordon Shanklin

David Harbour as Gordon Shanklin

playing the character Abraham Zapruder famous for shooting the only footage of that day and capturing the horror of the assassination and something he would have to live with for the rest of his life.  We see the local FBI Office next and Special Agent James Hosty which definitely seems to revere President Kennedy and is very excited about his visit although he seems to get teased a bit by his co-workers for it.  We see his boss Gordon Shanklin as well letting everyone know this is the Secret Services job and to report to them if they see anything worrisome. For just a moment they show Robert Oswald at his place of employment I think to show

James Badge Dale as Robert Oswald

James Badge Dale as Robert Oswald

that he was basically a regular guy. He and his whole office were listening to the radio while they were working as they turn the broadcast up and then the movie changes to actual footage of Love Field. Peter Landsman is so amazing the way he just goes back and forth from real footage to new, it is almost hard to tell what is what; the only way of really knowing, is that we of course know the brilliant actors playing the roles.  They show some of the secret service agents and then come to Billy Bob Thornton who plays Forrest Sorrels, Special Agent in Charge of the Dallas Secret Service agency. He’s looking over everything and when asked if he will be OK, he says “Oh yeah, it’s gonna be a good program”. Little did he know just what kind of day he was in for. We then get introduced briefly to Dealy Plaza as Abraham Zapruder is trotting down, trying to find the perfect place to film the President’s motorcade with his new 8 mm camera.  Zapruder finds the “perfect spot” on top of a pedestal and starts getting the camera ready to film. We see a scene in the hospital that encompasses the main feeling of admiration and love one of the nurses had for the Kennedy’s, there was no doubt the majority of Americans no matter who they were or what political party they were affiliated with were enamored with them or “Camelot” as they and their family were often referred to.

Paul Giamatti as Abraham Zapruder in Parkland

Paul Giamatti as Abraham Zapruder in Parkland

We go back and forth from real footage of the motorcade to Zapruder filming and shots being fired with that look of horror on his face when he realized what he had just filmed. Just typing this sends chills up my spine. The acting was so amazing and Paul Giamatti transformed himself into this character making me believe every second of it, like I was right there with him. There is a reason he is an Oscar winner, he is amazing. The movie then switches to the hospital which is totally clueless to what has just happened. The secretaries are gossiping about something or another and when they answer the switchboard, they were so totally ignorant about what the call was about, all they really knew is that it was a VIP, the president. We then focus

Ron Livingston as James Hosty

Ron Livingston as James Hosty

on the ER where they just assume the president is coming in with the flu or something because no one has told them anything. As much as I wanted to break down each character and actor that played them, I just don’t have enough time and this would be the longest blog ever, so I am just going to focus on some standout performances. This is not to say that everyone in the movie wasn’t fantastic. I mean we are talking about some amazing actors like Marcia Gay Harden and Ron Livingston to name a few but there were key performances that for me just made the movie even better and so I am focusing on them for now, although I DO have to give Ron Livingston a shout out for The Conjuring, which I watched on Halloween; now THAT was creepy as fuck but, I digress. The first actor I want to talk about naturally is Tom Welling, even though he is not the first big name to grace the screen in the movie, he IS the reason I became

Always adorable and always somehow sexy at the same time ;)

Always adorable and always somehow sexy at the same time ;)

interested in it at all, so we have to give credit where credit is due and give him props for giving me the opportunity to see such an awesome movie with the most amazing, moving true to life performances I have seen on screen in a while. After we hear the shots, we see the cars all speeding up to the hospital and get our first glimpse of Tom playing agent Roy Kellerman in charge of the White House Secret Service detail. He is first seen in the car where it looks like he is shielding the slain president’s body with his and is leaning in towards Jacki. We then see him again outside the car getting emotional about what has happened and then finally we see him lifting Kennedy’s body from the car and putting it on the stretcher and then wheeling it into the hospital with several other secret service agents. What can I say about all of this but his whole performance was moving and truly convincing. Now I know a lot of you are going to just say, “Oh she has a thing for Tom Welling, she thinks he’s hot yada yada yada” youParkland_movie_review_icon know what? You are completely right, I think he’s a fucking rock star as Peter Landesman so eloquently pointed out in the interview down at the bottom of the page BUT this was something different. The man I saw on the screen wasn’t Clark Kent, He wasn’t that kid from Cheaper by the Dozen or the hot guy from the Fog, not that he was a bad actor in any of those shows/movies, but the caliber of this movie was just different. This was a REAL actor with real potential and he belonged right there with all of those Oscar winners and nominees. He may have had a small part but his parts were amazing and moving. There were nuances that felt so real I didn’t even catch them until I watched it the second and third time to write this blog, When the doctor went to put the tracheotomy in, he had to turn away but it was the mix of squeamishness and devastation in that single moment that sold it. When the president was lying there dead and they brought in the coffin, he truly looked despondent like he wanted to cry but he couldn’t because he was the one who had to hold it and everyone together. That is something I am sure the real agent Kellerman actually felt at that time. God knows I’ve seen plenty of actors that couldn’t fake it as well as Tom did.  Then when he wanted to take the president back home and that asshole of a medical examiner tried to keep him, Tom as Roy Kellerman got pissed and took that scene and the president by force. Hell, I got pissed…I was like “Oh no you didn’t just mess with my boy Tom” but then again I’m a little nuts so whatever, back to Tom… When he shoved the driver out of the way and said you’re not driving and got in the car, I was like YES. It was clear that Roy Kellerman once again took charge on a day that it would have been impossible for most people to think, let alone take care of the situation at hand. As they were loading the coffin onto Air force One, they couldn’t get it around an existing wall that was there so Roy just grabbed a hack saw and sawed and broke that wall away so they could complete their mission to get the president back home and when he said they had never lost a president on their watch before, it was sad and you had some realization of what these people endured. Tom did everything you would expect from an A list actor (even though he is not technically considered one yet), he got it right and made you feel it like you were right there with him. I actually cried a little when he was standing over the President’s coffin remarking it was the first time the secret service had lost a president under its watch. He had an expression on his face of disillusionment, regret and sadness. The emotion he expressed was just painful….but in a good way. 1376505_401767813282177_366061204_nThe next person I want to focus on is Zac Efron because he did an amazing job in his performance as well and quite honestly a few short months before I couldn’t understand why on earth they would cast him in a movie like this. I even went as far to ask if this was a musical version of the JFK assassination. Yeah it was bitchy but yeah that’s me…get over it. What I know now is that Zac is a decent little actor, plus he has a hot body but don’t get me started with that ;) Knowing he was playing an important role in this movie I thought I would go investigate what the hell they saw in Zac Efron that I hadn’t yet. I had already seen Charlie St. Cloud and yeah, I’ll give him credit, it was good and the acting was decent but I wanted to see something more. I read somewhere that Landesman had seen Zac in the Paperboy, honestly I don’t know if that’s true, but I wanted to go and check it out for myself plus I love Nicole Kidman and John Cusack so it was a win win for me either way :) I watched the movie and was blown away because this wasn’t the little Zac Efron that we had known for singing a bunch of super lame songs in “high school”.  This kid was really good and it was right then that I knew he was going to be perfect in this movie as well. Zac played Jim Carrico the resident doctor on staff at Parkland Memorial Hospital the day of the shooting. The first scene-FallPreParkland we see of him is in the lounge taking a call to go to the ER. The next major shot is when nurse Doris comes to tell him they have a patient coming in. Not realizing it is the president he says” I’m busy” and goes about his work. She says It’s the president and he says “he probably has the flu”. When they wheel the president in and everyone is screaming and he realizes the enormity of the situation, he asks where the attending physician is and is told he IS the doctor for the moment. The sheer terror expressed on his face looks real when it’s obvious he is going to have to take charge of the situation but then as any good doctor would he snaps out of it and gets right to work. His “doctor speak” was good, very convincing and all his movements seemed like he could actually be PKLD_09091.CR2a doctor….not just playing one on TV :) He was almost elated when he found that the President had a heartbeat for a moment, I think Jim Carrico thought he might be able to save him for a second. When the attending physician came in he pretty much took charge but after tireless efforts to save the president it just wasn’t going to happen. The look of devastation on Zac’s face again was heart wrenching and convincing to say the least, he embodied a doctor who looked as though he had never lost a patient before let alone someone of that magnitude.  Zac played this role well and has caused me to take notice in what he may or may not be doing next.

Colin Hanks as Travis Marshall from Dexter; this is by far my favorite character he has ever played :)

Colin Hanks as Travis Marshall from Dexter; this is by far my favorite character he has ever played :)

Collin Hanks who played attending physician Malcolm Perry always surprises me with every role he takes although I guess his stellar acting ability shouldn’t surprise any of us, being son of a king in Hollywood. Don’t get me wrong, he wasn’t just handed everything to him; he worked for it, sometimes in shitty shows and sometimes in less than great movies but his acting was always pretty good. I’ve seen him in a few things but my absolute favorite has to be when he played Travis Marshall on Dexter. The complexity of which he played the character was outstanding. Suffering from severe psychosis, he brought out a dark side of his personality that seemed omnipotent and almost all season the fans and Dexter thought it was Dr. Gellar (who was dead and just in Travis’s head) committing these crimes or making Travis commit them. That role was so good and after that I knew that the word nepotism was nowhere in this guys vocabulary, he gets jobs based on talent and talent alone. When I saw he was in this movie that his father’s production company Playtone was making, I was more than pleased and couldn’t wait to see what he would do with the role. When all of the drama was ensuing in the ER, Dr. Perry was chilling with his fellow doctors in the break room. A medical

Colin Hanks as Dr. Perry

Colin Hanks as Dr. Perry w/ Tom Welling and others

assistant rushed in and said he’s needed and he told him “I’ll be there in five”. The medical assistant says you’re needed NOW. He just gives him a look, as all of the sudden every doctor is being paged at the same time to the ER and they are all baffled. He just says I’ll go, not realizing what the hell he is getting into. When he gets to the scene, he is a little shocked but jumps in right away as any true professional would do. Once again his scenes were flawless and I was totally convinced this man was a real doctor. At the end we saw him doing everything humanly possible to save Kennedy but it was the fact that just days later Lee Harvey Oswald was brought in after being shot that showed the human component and integrity of the man. He definitely took the Hippocratic oath to heart of first, do no harm. When they are working on Oswald, there comes a point where he said “we might actually save this one” and as agent Sorrels looks on waiting for his confession, another surgical assistant looks over and says “Do we want to?” This prompts Dr. Perry to work harder on him to no avail unfortunately.  Lee Harvey Oswald was no longer for this world and no confession was ever received.

Billy Bob Thornton as Forrest Sorrels Dallas Secret Service

Billy Bob Thornton as Forrest Sorrels Dallas Secret Service

Billy Bob Thornton played Forrest Sorrels, Special Agent in Charge of the Dallas Secret Service agency. As I said before he thought they were gonna have a good program that day, well they got a show that no one was prepared to deal with. I’ve loved Billy Bob in just about everything he has been in, no one can forget Sling Blade, he was brilliant in that movie and probably remembered for the most of any of the movies he’s been in. I even kind of loved Bad Santa but then again I am one of those girls that deserves a lump of coal in her stocking so what can you expect? You saw Billy Bob in bits throughout the movie but when he viewed the film of the assassination, that’s when he really came to life. One of the “suits” told him he blew it and he just came unglued. He screamed “Shut up” “Did you see that”? “We blew it?” “That wasn’t a damned Easter parade that was the president of the United States, do you understand me?” “You think we need your God damned opinion about anything?” “I’ve been doing this job for 30 years and I have never lost my man, this was not supposed to happen, yesterday I lost my man.” and with that one little speech we might have seen one of the most powerful moments of the movie. In the movie, he is transformed, I mean more so than just about anyone else, he looks the part, he looks like he could walk into a time machine and step out in 1963 and fit right in. As convincing as everyone was in the movie with emotions and everything there is always just something in most period dramas that make you feel like you’re not really watching history. It wasn’t bad with this film, in fact it was barely noticeable but as far as Billy Bob’s part, he WAS 1963.

Paul Giamatti as Abraham Zapruder

Paul Giamatti as Abraham Zapruder

Paul Giamatti played Abraham Zapruder who is another fantastic actor who’s been in too many awesome movies to count. Could he have said no to Lady in the Water? Yeah maybe, but I have actually seen worse films and the guy got his acting degree at Yale, yeah that’s right I said freaking Yale. Who does that? Awesome people that’s who :) Zapruder was all over this movie, having the misfortune of capturing the ONLY footage of the president and his assassination on film made him a most wanted man. In the beginning we see him so joyous about getting to get up close to film the president’s visit and it is made clear later in the film that his father had brought them over as immigrants and he was very proud to live an American life and everything that goes along with it. This day embodied everything that being an American meant, or it was supposed to before everything went horribly wrong. Everybody wanted to see what was on that Belle and Howell 8MM camera but the problem was nobody knew how to develop it properly. He ended up finding a Kodak processing lab that could develop the film and made three copies, one for the secret service, one for the FBI and originally, one for himself.  Heartbroken, despondent and forever changed, Zapruder ended up selling his copy and all rights to the film to LIFE magazine for $150,000 (which today would be about 1.1 million) with the explicit demand that they leave the kill shot out. He said “Something’s the world does not need to see; we are talking about a dignified man, this is a very undignified end for a very dignified man”. He was heartbroken dejected and forever changed, and Giamatti as usual made it seem all too real.

Jacki Weaver as Marguerite Oswald...she was one seriously fucked up cookie

Jacki Weaver as Marguerite Oswald…she was one seriously fucked up cookie

Jacki Weaver played Marguerite Oswald; You know I have seen Jacki Weaver in at least five different things and I never really realized she was the same person. I guess this is a credit to her acting.  The only thing I can say about Marguerite Oswald was that she was bat shit crazy. Weaver drew you in from the first moment on screen and you didn’t know whether to feel sorry for Marguerite for being so crazy or to just hate her for being well; so crazy and ignorant. She had it in her mind that her son Lee was an American agent or spy or something when the reality is he was a screwed up man who couldn’t find his place in the world calling himself a revolutionary that tried to defect to Russia, who basically threw him back because they didn’t want him.  I don’t know if he told her he was with the government or if she just made that up in her own mind to justify his atrocities but the way Weaver brought this character to life was actually a little terrifying. She felt like it was her time to shine and profit from the story of being the woman who spawned the man who assassinated the president of the united states. When she found out her son had died she had the audacity to

Jeremy Strong as Lee Harvey Oswald, he actually looks quite similar to the real guy

Jeremy Strong as Lee Harvey Oswald, he actually looks quite similar to the real guy

suggest that he be buried at Arlington national cemetery alongside of the president. She was maniacal and narcissistic and for a split second you get an insight to how Lee Harvey Oswald could have been a complete monster although I still don’t understand shooting the president because you feel like someone is “threatening” your wife. It’s not like they were going to deport her, Hosty just went to see if she was alright when he thought she was being knocked around. There were a few things about the movie that I didn’t love but not many. It seemed to cut back and forth from place to place and I suppose they could have taken more time but all in all it was a good movie and that wasn’t enough to really bother me that much.  I still don’t understand why there aren’t tons of rave reviews out there, there were a few but not as many as I would have thought. With so many great actors who gave amazing performances, I am not sure why people and critics weren’t jizzing themselves over this. I mean the acting is there, the story is there and it has powerful visuals …what is more exciting than the realness of it all, I mean when it is actual reality and not some fabricated bullshit made up for TV called reality but let’s not go there. This movie was exciting and enlightening, moving and heartbreaking. It was acted beautifully and to me just seemed really well made for the most part. It was convincing, I mean I was convinced and I am a picky bitch when it comes to movies; even IF I watch some of the shittiest movies known to mankind (Twilight) but seriously…I was truly convinced and I felt like I was back in time for that hour and a half.

People that just want to trash this movie for the sake of trashing it and being straight up dicks can go fuck themselves...enough said >:(

People that just want to trash this movie for the sake of trashing it and being straight up dicks can go fuck themselves…enough said >:(

One thing that kind of pisses me off is the amount of comments and Facebook posts I see from people that are freaking out about historical mistakes and inaccuracies etc. They talk about not having time to put Jackie’s pill box hat and the flowers on Kennedy’s body before they wheel him in on the gurney and the way they rush Johnson in the hospital, even the size and which room they take him in. OK, first off, this was NOT a documentary it was a movie and movies are made to entertain. Although the movie was based in reality, the director still had a responsibility to make the movie entertaining to some degree, I mean seriously when was the last time anyone went out of their way to go see a documentary? Hey more power to you if that’s your thing but being an ass and trying to discredit this on every forum and place you can comment because you don’t agree with the way it is made?  Go make your own damn film and see if anyone goes to see it if you can scrounge up the 10 million or know anything about directing a film.  I suppose that throughout history I have bought into the conspiracy at one point or another, I mean as fucked up and shady as our government is who couldn’t believe they are capable BUT watching this movie put a lot of things into perspective and made a lot more sense than trying to grab at who done its, maybes and nefarious schemes, so for the people ranting on Facebook or where ever about Oliver Stone’s version being sooo much better, yeah whatever. No one cares, go to his fansite and jizz out, don’t go and attack other fans for their opinions…just go away AND if you want to get in a pissing match with me?? Go ahead and try; I’m ALWAYS up for a good argument and rarely ever lose :) People talking it down without knowing their head from their ass, some critics not even giving it a chance and the

yeah you guys totally suck for the way you handled this...just sayin :(

yeah, Exclusive Media, you guys totally suck for the way you handled this…just sayin :(

distribution debacle has made this seem like an abysmal failure in box office receipts so far. They are a fraction of production costs but like I said most of it lays in the distributors hands and like I said they suck dick and did a shitty job getting this movie out to the masses. I am curious what the numbers could have been had the movie even shown in 4 or 5 cities in my state, in every state for that matter. It is the ONE complaint I read the most, is that no one got to see it in their town and it is now coming straight to DVD. I guarantee that fans would have gladly paid to see it in theaters AND bought the DVD because each of these amazing, Oscar winning and nominated actors have their own individual fan bases, not to mention people seeing it because they love history, were a fan of the book, fan of Peter Landesman or wanted to see it just because Tom Hank’s produced it and everything he touches turns to gold, maybe they are just a Kennedy buff or just like good dramas. Had this movie been marketed correctly, it could have made more money and what sucks about this is that  in situations

Tom in Venice, one of the festivals he attended to promote Parkland

Tom in Venice, one of the festivals he attended to promote Parkland

like this, it seems like it falls on the actors shoulders when movies fail yet they have no control over who or how many people see it if the distributor is stupid. Case in point I read something online that mentioned the movie and Tom Welling in the same sentence…something along the lines of him failing to bring fans out to see his movie or some shit like that. OK first off, he is NOT the biggest star in this, second none of the actors did any more than Tom did to promote this movie, flying all over the world and to every festival to promote it, doing interview after interview and drawing HUGE crowds in the process. This was not Tom’s or any of the other actor’s faults; this is a distributing debacle and now they better just hope that there are people who want to purchase the DVD. I found it online to download; I also saw it posted on YouTube both of which are free. Most people aren’t like me; they won’t go out and buy something they can get for free. I will always support my favorite actors and so even though I already have it and am currently having financial difficulties, I will also be purchasing it as I hope the rest of the fans will do to support their favorite actors. The ONLY reason I got it for free in the first place was because some moron at a distribution company didn’t think more than 3 people in the state of Oregon or anyone outside of the Portland metro area would care about this movie…they were wrong. If you take nothing more away from this ~ at least go rent the movie and see for yourself (preferably buy it and support your favorite stars). I think most people who don’t have their heads up their asses will enjoy it.  It may not be 100% historically accurate or whatever but I know Peter Landesman said he did over 3 years of research, so I am fairly certain he got quite a bit right and the people speaking out are just dumb asses who wouldn’t be happy if Kennedy had been resurrected just so they could re live the same horrible event and solve their precious and ever so lame conspiracy theories….

Peace, love, happiness and oh so much drooling over Tom Welling ~ until next time ;)

Queen videos I loved when I was a kid and still do ~ the amazing Freddie Mercury …because he was awesome and so am I :)

I felt that Freddie Mercury deserved his own page because the combination of his angelic voice which I have yet to hear anyone as amazing since his death and the combination of May/Mercury/Taylor’s writing defined a whole generation of music that can’t be compared to anything else :) It was a sad day when we lost Freddie to AIDS, I know I cried while my husband sat and made all kinds of gay jokes…..

Who wants to live forever, one of my favorite songs they made :)

Bohemian Rhapsody…I mean c’mon who doesn’t love this song??

Killer Queen ~ :D

Somebody to Love ~

Another One Bites the Dust ~

We Are the Champions ~

The Show Must Go On ~

Radio GaGa ~

Crazy Little Thing Called Love ~

and just because ~ Body Language ~  ;)

Obviously there was a huge songbook to choose from but these are just some of my favorites and the better known songs. It is funny, while looking for the videos on youtube I came across a comment on one of the videos concerning Freddie’s death that I had to share…  :D

“Some say his human body could not take the sheer power of his holy awesomeness. On the day he died, he was buried under the stage where he sang his first concert, and after three days, he rose up from the dead, sang a song so heavenly that it raptured all those around when it happened (Murph the janitor), and he imploded in a violent flash of light. He then kicked open the pearly gates, said “Fuck you god, I’m gay and amazing!” and god was like “KK bro, calm down”. He now owns heaven”

Videos I loved when I was much much younger…but still had awesome taste :) Part 1

The first videos are from two of my very favorite bands that I still listen to pretty much on a daily basis. Yeah I am stuck in the 70′s and 80′s it seems but I have to say it was a MUCH better time before the shitfest I like to call a life happened. Oh by the way if you are wondering where Queen is, I gave them their own page because Freddy Mercury was just THAT awesome and deserves at LEAST that much ;)

Little River Band ~ It’s a long way there has one of my favorite guitar solos in it and I keep trying to get my kid to play it. he is a guitar genius but likes to play super hard rock like Pantera and Metalica which are OK but just not my thing

ELO’s Don’t Bring Me Down is just, I don’t know…it’s just awesome because it is ELO. What can I say?

OK, if you don’t know Little River band’s Reminiscing then you are just dead to me…you hear that? Dead, I mean seriously, who on earth has never heard this song and who doesn’t like it? C’mon it makes everyone think of some other time, because you are reminiscing….

ELO ~ Strang Magic is just another example of why ELO is just fucking awesome and Jeff Lynn is one of the greatest singer/song writers ever to grace our presence :p

Quite possibly my favorite song by Little River Band of all time. As I get older I get the song more and I always got the part about being born in the sign of water although I am an Aquarius which is ACTUALLY an air sign but considered the water bearer, seriously the part about being around water….so true :D

This is my go to song when I am wallowing in heartache :( It is ELO’s Don’t Walk Away from the soundtrack to Xanadu which is one of the best soundtracks to one of the cheesiest movies ever that by the way I actually have on my DVR right this second but someone did a really pretty nice job of making a tribute video for the Notebook which was the only decent video for this song I could find ;)

Another song that if you don’t know, I hate you and you need to go and die already!!!! No seriously, I can’t understand why anyone over the age of 30 wouldn’t know all of these songs I am posting maybe even younger if they have super cool brothers and sisters :D

Ok, This is I’m Alive by ELO from Xanadu again. Now for anyone wondering what the fuck is going on in this video and why the girls on this wall are coming to life, they are supposed to be the daughters of Zeus and they are muses and well I said the movie was a major cheesfest didn’t I?

This has special meaning to me. Happy Anniversary by Little River band is a song that I pretty much call my husband every November 26th and he laughs and says “fuck you” and I laugh and he says “I love you” and I say “I know” and hang up :D

Last but not least for this page is All Over the World by ELO and it is my upbeat song when I just need to feel good or at least better than I do at the time. It is from Xanadu as well. Like I said, they had a killer soundtrack, mainly because the majority was by ELO :)

Letting Go ~ Why isn’t it ever as easy as people say it is supposed to be?

Officially two years ago tonight one of the most precious souls I have known left us and now we get to pick up the pieces......yay

Officially two years ago tonight one of the most precious souls I have known left us and now we get to pick up the pieces……yay

Letting go…..So here we are at the night it all was set into motion two years ago. The night that sweet little Preston might have made one of the fucking dumbest and most tragic mistakes of his very short lifetime :( Sure you hear about drinking and driving all the time, the statistics are staggering but drinking and walking right off of a freeway overpass???? Not so much.

People keep telling me it is time to just get over it, after all it has been

From Left to right: Preston, Emily, Mark and Derrick (my son, who looks like a psycho killer LOL)

From Left to right: Preston, Emily, Mark and Derrick (my son, who looks like a psycho killer LOL)

two years now or should I say one person has been telling me that and I suppose I should listen because it was his best friend and is my son who is telling me but the problem is how do I let go of this kind of overwhelming sadness and sorrow of someone who was so dear to me, I mean do I just let it go, just like that….poof…it’s gone? Um, Noooooo, it’s not.  If it was ever that easy I would have done it by now but I am just not hard wired that way.

I always loved this picture, it was so Preston :p

I always loved this picture, it was so Preston :)

By all rights I have always been a tenacious bitch or some would say a hanger on….no that doesn’t mean I am some stage five clinger or anything, I just hold on to things say like a 20 year marriage that was miserable to say the least yet those little words til death do you part kept me from making a run for the door every time shit got real and believe me it got real ALL THE TIME.

When my husband’s sister was unexpectedly killed right after her 40th birthday in a car accident, we ALL hung on and I have to say it took me a good 5 years to at least come to a place where I can just remember the fun and great times and not be sad about the fact that she’s not here anymore.  This is not a woman I had known my whole life either, it is just someone I cared very deeply for.

You see, that is my problem. I care so deeply for people that

Preston with Anthony (who was with him when he died) and Anthony's girlfriend

Preston with Anthony (who was with him when he died) and Anthony’s girlfriend

sometimes it can be a blessing and sometimes it can be a curse.  I can be connected to them in ways that some people never understand which is where the dreams foretelling some of these tragic events have come in to play I believe.  It is not always something that I want but it is just always something that is within me and always has been.

For those of you that have no idea what that last statement meant, two weeks prior to Preston’s death I had a horrible nightmare that I awoke from in tears and could barely breathe. I had seen him fall from what I had believed at the time to be his balcony of his apartments to his death and the next day I messaged him on Facebook and I begged him to be careful and told him what happened.

A picture I used to smile at every time I saw it....before it was the thing that ended up killing him :(

A picture I used to smile at every time I saw it….before it was the thing that ended up killing him :(

He was a little shocked and said I had blown his mind but that he was fairly sure he would be fine but yet I begged him to try and cut down on his drinking some.  I kept having the nightmares to the point it was keeping me from sleeping and I was all alone here at the apartment and was going a little nuts.

That week, when I didn’t see Preston online on Facebook I started freaking out and pacing back and forth so I called my son at some point and left him a frantic voice mail. He called me back within the hour and said “mom Preston is fine he is here in Bend“. A few days later he was dead from a fall from an overpass, he had been out drinking and he and a friend had wanted to go to the store to get munchies or something and well the rest is just too much to bear so I won’t go into it.

So here I am a hanger on, that has hung on to life more times than I can

I always liked this pic but then there wasn't a pic of Preston that he wasn't smiling in and didn't just make you feel good about everything

I always liked this pic but then there wasn’t a pic of Preston that he wasn’t smiling in and didn’t just make you feel good about everything

count and believe me after the times that I should have been dead from the way I abused my body over the 20 years I was living the way I was and then the times I almost died from what I like to think are the consequences of those years of unhealthy living or God’s big wake up call, I think it is pretty clear I am just not the type of person who lets go of anything…my life or the lives of those I love. I like to think I hold on to dear life with conviction in everything that I do so letting go is just NOT something I am prepared to do at this point. I am still angry, hurt and confused.

This is going to seem strange but the day after he died, I was beside myself with grief and just kept asking why and wanted to know if he was happy and at peace. The next morning for whatever reason I had the feeling I should look out that window which I never do and there was this heart shaped spider web (it's hard to make out) which was on the inside of a screen between the glass and figure it out

This is going to seem strange but the day after he died, I was beside myself with grief and just kept asking why and wanted to know if he was happy and at peace. The next morning for whatever reason I had the feeling I should look out that window which I never do and there was this heart shaped spider web (it’s hard to make out) which was on the inside of a screen between the glass and outside….you figure it out :)

Just the idea that it is someone’s time to go at the tender age of 21 is a giant steaming pile of fucking bullshit!!! This kid had everything going for him and yeah he was having some issues but what kid isn’t at a crossroads at that age? He had friends and family that could have helped him through it had he opened up and not felt the need to always feel that he had to be the one to keep everyone happy even at the cost of his own happiness. My heart still hurts knowing that he didn’t know he could have talked to me any time about anything and I would have never judged him.

Well, this is me doing my best to let go just a little bit and maybe next year will be a little bit better.  I know this year I am not lying in a pool of tears looking for the nearest cliff to jump from, so I am one up from last year.


~I think this song says it best~

Peace Love and Happiness in this life and into the next ~

This was more of a personal blog for me but if you can take anything from it as far as letting go or people trying to push you to do it faster than you are ready to do than feel free to comment and always know you have someone here to listen :)

To my little Peter Pan ~ wherever you are, know you are still loved and missed. There is no expatriation date on grief or love and I know I will see you again someday ;)

To my little Peter Pan ~ wherever you are, know you are still loved and missed. There is no expiration date on grief or love and I know I will see you again someday ;)

Abercrombie, Fitch & Dicks galore ~ One of the “Un-cool Kids” speaks out :D

Of course they have perfect bodies but what no one wants to tell us is they are also air brushed with in an inch of their lives

Of course they have perfect bodies but what no one wants to tell us is they are also air brushed with in an inch of their lives

Ok, I put aside my other blog about Johnny Depp to write this when this article came to my attention. No scratch that, it actually came to my attention in the middle of the night last night but I had to let it stew and simmer a bit to see if it was just going to amuse me a little or piss me off.

Well it did the latter and I am sure some of you will be saying, oh Nan don’t be so sensitive or others will be saying —> see see, she is an old fat cat lady and is all butt hurt over this one little thing. Ah, contraire my little precious ones. Yeah I am a little offended maybe just a little but I have made peace with the fact that I am fat, HELL, half of America is fat, we are the most unhealthy obese nation in the world so, I fit right in not to mention the average size of the American woman is a size 12. PLUS, I have a 2 year plan and have set my goals so I am good to go but this blog is not about me or my sheer will to be healthy ~ mentally or otherwise.

This is about some ass munch, Mike Jeffries that actually said some stupid shit to the PUBLIC about how he doesn’t think fat people deserve to wear his clothing line nor does he want “fatties” shopping in his stores because it will drive all the cool kids away. Umm, yes, that was just a big thud from my jaw dropping ONCE AGAIN on to my keyboard.

If THIS is sexy then I would rather be dead...I am sorry but what guy would even want to fuck that? I mean it is a bag of bones with a pretty face

If THIS is sexy then I would rather be dead…I am sorry but what guy would even want to fuck that? I mean it is a bag of bones with a pretty face

So first off, what about being thin makes someone popular?  I have seen plenty of thin girls get ostracized just as much as fat girls but yeah we live in a superficial society and people are judged, I get it. Even I am not that sheltered or in denial BUT this guy is only talking about XL sizes for women, not men….yeah that’s right, women.  He goes on further to say the only reason he carries the men’s sizes is because some athletes are larger. So if a fat kid (boy) comes in and is looking at the XL rack does he get chased away like some hoard of bees circling their precious honey pot? No, I don’t think so.  This is just a cheap shot that it’s OK for men to be a little portly but women, no fucking way they need to be anorexic and thin and look like they are on a one way trip to Zimbabwe to be “beautiful”.

To add insult to injury, the guy saying this, is so fugly I spit my carrot juice all over my lap when I looked up a picture of him.  I mean how many plastic surgeries can a guy have before the doc or a good friend politely tells you, dude it is JUST not working, give it up.  This guy talks about wanting to be in the “in crowd” or with the cool kids, I think he is over compensating just a bit.  Let me guess he drives a Porsche and has an 18 year old boy toy or girlfriend (whatever is his thing) just to feel like he is “all that and a bag of chips, oh and has a big dick too, can’t forget that ;)

The first thing that this guy and everyone else needs to figure out is that

Yeah, like this dude has ANY right to talk about what is sexy. they need to hire the Donald just to FIRE him for this shit :D

Yeah, like this dude has ANY right to talk about what is sexy. they need to hire the Donald just to FIRE him for this shit :D

kids whether they are mean or not do not ALWAYS judge you on whether you are a size double zero or not, unfortunately at my daughters school it seems to be all about the brand clothes you wear and the things you have which for me tends to be an issue living in the situation I do.  I wish I could be like my parents were and just give her everything she wanted, well except the part about them not giving a shit what I was doing as long as I wasn’t bothering them but back to this blog…..

So if you want to, you can blindly go into an Abercrombie and Fitch and buy to your little hearts content and be one of the “cool kids”; that’s fine but what are you really saying by doing that?  Are their clothes really that great? I mean you are paying for a name not the quality or awesomeness of the look or product. TRUST ME, I was young, hot and snobby once too.  If you want nice quality clothes by Ralph Lauren or there are plenty of other designers that make decent rags to wear that don’t employ pompous asses to front and sell their brand.  Let’s see exactly what Mr. Mike Jefferies via Business Insider had to say about all of this:

“He doesn’t want larger people shopping in his store, he wants thin and beautiful people,” Lewis said. “He doesn’t want his core customers to see people who aren’t as hot as them wearing his clothing. People who wear his clothing should feel like they’re one of the ‘cool kids.’”

I might have had REALLY BAD 80's hair but i was not a "fattie" as this Abercrombie fuck tard would suggest ~ size 10 and feeling just fine

I might have had REALLY BAD 80′s hair but i was not a “fattie” as this Abercrombie fuck tard would suggest ~ size 10 and feeling just fine

The largest size for women at Abercrombie is a size 10 and I hate to tell you, when I was 19 and 20, I looked fucking really good, had a hot body with a totally flat stomach and a nice ass but I wore a size 9/10 because on my frame, I looked like shit any smaller than that. Of course this is before they changed the sizing to pander to all the girls’ egos who now when they purchase a size 5 or so are actually wearing around the same size I did back then.  I figure it would have to be that way considering my daughter is exactly the same size and almost the same weight (she weighs more) yet she wears a size five in today’s market, so they can invent sizes like zero and double zero so girls can feel super skinny or something.  Seriously. Why? Can’t we just reflect a healthy body image and call the size what it really is and quit competing with each other to be a cool kid or whatever the hell this ass fuck is talking about?

American Eagle and H&M figured it out. I mean they don’t sell sizes that super big kids can wear but they certainly go up to high enough sizes that even girls that don’t feel like perpetually sticking their finger down their throat after every lunch can fit in with no problem and still fit in.

I guess my point in all this is a love your body and not listen to some

This is Kaela Humphries and she is a size 16 and GORGEOUS!!!!! I WISH i looked as beautiful as her right now but I will again and it doesn't matter what some half wit says about the size you wear. It MATTERS how much you love yourself and how HEALTHY you want to be :)

This is Kaela Humphries and she is a size 16 and GORGEOUS!!!!! I WISH I looked as beautiful as her right now but I will again and it doesn’t matter what some half wit says about the size you wear. It MATTERS how much you love yourself and how HEALTHY you want to be :)

dumb fuck about what does or doesn’t constitute being popular.  Perfection does not exist and if you don’t love yourself body and soul no one is ever going to love you. I am not gonna sell you a pile of crap about inner beauty although it does exist but in this world there are not enough people who are pure of heart enough and can take the blinders off long enough to see it.   It IS important to live a healthy lifestyle and eat healthy, falling back on the whole inner beauty thing is a trap that a lot of people fall into because it is easier than just working hard and doing the right thing but in the end, girls do what’s right for you but just know that there is always one person who loves you for who you are and not what you look like or for the clothes you wear.

Peace, love and harmony to all you lovely young ladies and fat Twinkie lovin cat ladies too ~ Nan

My friend recently posted this on Facebook and I felt it was my duty to re-post on this blog. I think what this guy it doing is great and if nothing else the narration in this video is hysterical and so worth watching :)

Hell just froze over, my foot is stuck in my mouth and the Vampire Diaries DOESN’T suck….who knew?


So it is official, HELL has frozen over. Really it has, I promise.  I always said that the day I, Nancy Smith (yes, that is actually my real name which is the 2nd most popular name and only 2nd to the name Mary Smith which is my sisters name :p) watched that lame ass show on the CW called the Vampire Diaries that I would be either dead, in a catatonic state and couldn’t help it or Hell would have frozen over. Well I am obviously NOT dead or in a catatonic state, because I am typing…duh, so Hell obviously is frozen and crystallized because I not only watched it (all seasons and am up to date) but I LOVED it.  People, can I just ask one thing?

What the fuck is wrong with me?  OK maybe that was a loaded 936full-the-vampire-diaries-posterquestion but seriously I mean first Smallville and now Vampire Diaries, how could I miss these two shows that everyone and their dog has raved about and I am just like “oh yeah whatevs man, I will watch it on demand or whenever”, never really intending to watch it or with the Vampire Diaries I totally put my foot down. After Twilight, now please do not laugh at me, I could not imagine watching another show about vampire love and their being a love triangle and everything ugh, I just couldn’t deal with that all over again. I mean Twilight was alright if you could stomach KSpew, all you had to do is concentrate on all the pretty and  I just figured that The Vampire Diaries was more of the same, shitty acting masked in pretty faces and teen drama. Don’t get me wrong you have plenty of that (pretty and drama that is), I mean c’mon this IS the CW…they aim to please BUT the actors can act!!!! Something that Catherine Hardwick the director for Twilight forgot to take into consideration when she was casting her female lead role.

Nina Dobrev, not just a beautiful face but a really good actress as well

Nina Dobrev, not just a beautiful face but a really good actress as well

Why, OH Why wasn’t Nina Dobrev available to play Bella Swan (either that or they could have just killed off KStew’s Bella and put us out of our misery right away :D )?  I can see such a different outcome for the saga, aside from the shitty writing it started out with at least the acting would have been worthy of the billions it raked in and all the media attention and there would have been NO ROBSTEN!!!! That in itself or the fact we would have never had to hear jack shit about Kristen Stewart or see any of her shitty movies would have been worth ANYTHING they had to pay Nina but that is all history and I am getting way off track.

I am not going to go into a great deal about the origins of the story except as everyone knows it was a wildly popular young adult book series that made it to the TV by L.J. Smith and it was based around the Salvatore brothers who are vampires and Elena Gilbert who is not.  Seriously is there a young adult book series that isn’t coming to a TV or movie screen near you

season 4 changes everything.... :D

season 4 changes everything…. :D

anytime soon?  We had the Twi saga which was just so so compared to the Mortal Instruments (City of Bones), Beautiful Creatures based on the Caster Chronicles, Warm Bodies and I am just waiting for the Uglies book series and we will be all set.

nothing sexy or sizzling about the two of them...sorry

nothing sexy or sizzling about the two of them…sorry

So since this has already said it is going to be chalk full of spoilers I am just going to go ahead and ruin it for anyone (the 3 people) in the world that haven’t seen the show yet. Elena has a mushy relationship with Stefan and they are all kissy kissy and it is all really sweet and boring but you can see she really is hot after Damon but won’t allow herself to have such feelings because she is a good girl (yeah right) so she wavers emotionally back and forth between the two

Damon and Elena, there just seems to be something so sweet and I don't know what it is but  it feels so much more real than her and Stefan

Damon and Elena, there just seems to be something so sweet and I don’t know what it is but it feels so much more real than her and Stefan

never really giving in to Damon but then something terrible happens…she diesOh what to do, what to doWAIT, they are vampires; they can make her one too!!! So they did, then all the sudden she is climbing all over Damon’s shit and can’t get enough of him which to me makes way more sense

Ian and Nina out and about, now this is a cute couple that never feels to scowl at the camera or hide from the papz

Ian and Nina out and about, now this is a cute couple that never feels the need to scowl at the camera or hide from the papz

because between the two of them he is seriously hotter, in a smoldering bad boy kinda way and just happens to be her real life love. THIS Twilight and Robsten fans translates well onto screen not forced and weird like your beloved golden couple. This is the difference between a real life loving couple and a made up all in your warped freakish heads because you can’t live without a real life Bella and Edward relationship.

So at some point Elena’s Brother died, they were on this adventure crusade or whatever you wanna call it to go and get the remains of this really bad ass nasty dude Sirus that Bonnie was tricked into

Bonnie the witch and Jeremy the Vampire Hunter were always such a cute couple

Bonnie the witch and Jeremy the Vampire Hunter were always such a cute couple

digging up I think (God please correct me if I am wrong I watched all episodes in like a week). Elena was so shattered that Damon told her to turn her emotions off, I guess vampires have the ability to do that (what I nice little trick) and now she has and has literally turned into quite the little

had to give y'all a pic of Ian/Damon cuz he's just that hot ;)

had to give y’all a pic of Ian/Damon cuz he’s just that hot ;)

monster bitch.  She has done everything but eat the Prom queen which she actually attempted to do but was stopped by Bonnie and her witchy powers. Oh did I forget to mention Bonnie was a witch?  Yeah and there are Werewolves too, and werewolf hybrid mixed with Vamps, but we will get there.

Now they have Elena locked away to try and force her to switch her

Bonnie the last standing Bennett witch seems to be the key to everyone's nefarious plans

Bonnie the last standing Bennett witch seems to be the key to everyone’s nefarious plans

humanity back on but being a stubborn little bitch I have a feeling that Stefan and Damon might be waiting a little longer than they anticipated….so moving on to Bonnie.

Bonnie was Elena’s best friend who found out she was a witch quite by accident. She has pretty much only used her witchy powers for good until a professor found a way to exploit her curiosity

Klaus, the sexiest Vampire Werewolf hybrid this side of....well anywhere and he can bite me anytime :D

Klaus, the sexiest Vampire Werewolf hybrid this side of….well anywhere and he can bite me anytime :D

and her wanting to learn to control her powers for good to benefit himself.  He wants to resurrect the guy Sirus, who if done so correctly will unleash Hell on earth and every single immortal ever been killed will come back to life, even the really really bad ones and that means danger and even the really bad ass immortals that rarely need to be scared are shaking in their boots. This brings us to Klaus….

Ahhh, Klaus or Niklaus. Something about him is so sexy and

my sexy Klaus keeps me wanting more each week

my sexy Klaus keeps me wanting more each week

delicious and mean and nasty and God should I go on?  He is just bad with a capital B and I LOVE him and I love Joseph Morgan for bringing us such a truly bad character that we can truly love and hate at the same time.  Klaus is a true immortal and can only be killed by one thing which is a stake from a special tree which he just happens to possess so basically the ONLY thing that might be able to kill him is Sirus and that is only because he can get into his head and probably make him kill himself.

Big Bad Klaus has a heart of gold when he wants to show it

Big Bad Klaus has a heart of gold when he wants to show it

Klaus is also madly in love with Caroline who is also one of Elena’s best friends who was turned in to a vampire early on. She is actually dating a werewolf or I should say the first werewolf hybrid that Klaus sired and when Klaus saw the two of them together he wanted her…. end of story. He sent Tyler (his bitch boy) away and basically will kill him if he ever sees him near Caroline again.

I think Caroline is another one who closets her feelings because she

Caroline may be able to hide her feelings from everyone else but can she hide them from herself?

Caroline may be able to hide her feelings from everyone else but can she hide them from herself?

always runs to Klaus and she says it is because she can exploit his feelings for her but you can see she feels something…time will tell, but the problem is we may not have that time. Not only did Klaus JUST find out he is going to have a baby cub from a recreation of the howling he had with that little snake in the grass Haley :D but they are also making a new show just about the originals i.e. Klaus, Rebekah, Elijah and whatever other brothers they have lying around in the

Throw Haley Klaus's baby mama in the mix and we have trouble

Throw Haley Klaus’s baby mama in the mix and we have trouble

attic in New Orleans so the bond between Klaus and Caroline might be permanently severed which might make me cry just a little, although he did leave her a voice mail saying he wanted her to see the city with him so maybe they will bring her along and dump that she wolf soon after giving birth to the golden cub?  One can only hope, they need more tie-ins from the other show.  I’m still trying to wrap my head around Klaus being a baby daddy…..

Speaking of tie ins, Elijah is in love with Katarina which is Elena’s

The only originals left? Klaus, Elijah and Rebekah but what about Kol....will he be back?

The only originals left? Klaus, Elijah and Rebekah but what about Kol….will he be back?

actual first person or Elena is her Doppelganger or however you would say that but anyhoooo, does this mean she is going to be in both shows or is he going to have to give up his true love because of the thing with Klaus hunting her down?  Geez this thing gets more and more complicated by the minute but see, that is why I love it. There is actually meat to the

Kol...little brother to Klaus and Elijah. We thought he was killed off but is he?

Kol…little brother to Klaus and Elijah. We thought he was killed off but is he?

story and something to think about unlike glittering vampires that you or my 7th grade daughter could write the ending to their story without even thinking about…I mean with exception to the vampire baby and ripping it out with his teeth but God please; let’s not go back there it was bad enough the first time.  This story has everything and just when you think it can’t get any better it does. There is some other twist with something new but not something cheestastic but something that if you try and wrap your head around it; it makes some kind of sense, so in my book it works and works well.

Honestly I have no clue what is going to happen and that is the

the original vampires at play, Klaus and Elijah looking kinda sexy with the long locks ;)

the original vampires at play, Klaus and Elijah looking kinda sexy with the long locks ;)

beauty of it, I usually have these shows pegged from about two shows into the season but with a very few exceptions I can’t and this show that I said was so stupid and I would never watch in a million years or unless I was dead or catatonic or hell froze over is really really good and so now I am eating my words and telling everyone to watch and that no the CW is NOT just for tween little girls and their shows actually are good…OKAY there , I said it. I hope to hear what any fans of the show have to say and what you think of certain characters etc. I love to have discussions and debates here so have at it :D

Peace, love and lots of happy vampire biting and sex on the CW ~ Nan


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